Welcome to my website, Amor Crucifixus. My main impetus for creating this site was to put my writing out into the world. I've made occasionally successful efforts to have my writing published in online and print literary journals, but frankly doubt those are read by anyone, in which case I thought I may as well just put the material online myself if the chance of someone actually reading and finding value in it is roughly the same. I also think it's important for work to coherently exist in a specific aesthetic and ideological context, which I find often lacking in online literary spaces, especially when compared to channels for music consumption, where even "difficult" and "niche" works can reach an interested audience through clearly understood genre markers. I hope this site as a whole will function in the way a band name and album cover would for music, something that would be missing if the only context to the work was simply my personal name in a space with which I have no affinity.

The title is a shortened version of "amor meus crucifixus est," a phrase written by St. Ignatius of Antioch in his Epistle to the Romans as he was on his way to get eaten by lions (though I've seen it misattributed to St. Ignatius of Loyola, who lived fourteen hundred years later). The passage on the top page from Ezra Pound's Canto LXXXI, one of my favorite pieces of literature, should be read in the context of this phrase's meaning.

Eventually I plan to make the site responsive so that it can be viewed from a mobile device, but for now it's only designed with desktop in mind.

In addition to what's on here now more is always in (very slow) production, so please check back every once in a while if you're interested. There are two sections that are currently in "Coming Soon" status:
"Thoughts" will be little nonfiction reflections, mostly relating my personal experience to broader religious and cultural themes, but generally unrestricted by topic. I have a large amount of content here that needs to be edited and organized to be readable.
"Prayers" will feature some prayers/devotions I'd like to promote, while also hopefully serving to pad out the aesthetic, and in this case, dogmatic, context.

I'd like to extend special thanks to my friend Slava, who encouraged me when their awesome websites inspired me to create my own and also massively helped with the coding of this site. Please check out their main site below.



Art credits
Contents image: "The Five Wounds Of Christ" woodcut by Hans Weiditz, 1520 (edited by me)
The background images for Poems, Stories, and Thoughts are different depictions of "The Conversion of St. Paul" by Luca Giordano (1690), an anonymous Italian painter (circa 1700), and Palma Giovane (1592), respectively.